Situations have arisen lately that scare me. Memories, long let go, are again sharp and colourful with pain and sadness. I don't know the right thing to do. I can never be earthly friends with those memories.
I want to say "Memories, be
settled. Be still and give me peace again."
In fear, I see the time is coming when I will have to confront them in some way. I thought I could avoid them forever by pushing people out in front of me to let them deal with them themselves as age would
I do want to say to those memories that I pray God's greatest power of forgiveness and wisdom over the future and the past. I beg Him for absolute guidance into what I pray to be an unquestionably God-smothered encounter with the past. I pray
for unprecedented understanding, and deep and wide perspective with the Spirit of Jesus Himself drenching over all minds involved.
I want to say to those memories that I will be eternally grateful for the introduction to life in the Spirit and
one no longer bound by flesh thoughts and desires, as I let go of a largely under-the-law upbringing. This flawed introduction though it was, still had the effect God foreplanned. He is perfect in all of His ways.
Last nights verse to keep
me whole in Him: And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 cor 9:8.
WOW. I just keep slowly drinking over each part of that verse, letting each word soak
breath, truth and strength into my flesh as I expel the poison.
Even the most emotion-filled and pivotal memory of my life will fall under the soothing truth that if my eyes are fixed on Him and doing His will in action with my WHOLE life, then the
blessing for ALL things, at ALL times, with EVERYTHING I need will be right there for me to abound in. I see this in action EVERY DAY with the LAMP and home-life!!
My highest dream for those memories is that they will come under the fullest life with
Jesus in ALL things, letting Him soothe those heartaches, troubled insecurites, excuses, and regrets as He has with all mine. This may already be complete. God's most powerful work in this world is in the inner workings of our minds so we can rise from death
to life in all things to shine with a beauty and super-natural wisdom dazzling to the world.
I pray for a perfect peace and sensitivity to Jesus, so that we will acknowledge the unsettled disturbances rattling in the flesh when we try to run ahead without
Him, and fall down and cry out for Him to lead, even if He has to bind feet and hands to do so.
I thank God for the highest beauty and joy in knowing a memory can be the truest friends for eternity, even if they cannot ever be in this life. This life
is so short. We are on mission for the King and I have no desire to play with the flesh when standing in the army of our Lord with my armor on and the vast enemy spread before us at our feet. Focus and thank Him with all your heart for His incredible power
Last weeks verse: Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged because of the King of Assyria and his vast army. For there is a greater power with us than with him. With him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord
our God to help us and to fight our battles.
This is soooooo stunning and awe-inspiring!!!!!!!!!! Gulp it down, sip it slowly, savor the flavours of truth and let it do its work in you and me. Be loved, blanketed in warmth and confidence in His
ways - draw security, like a blanket, up high and wrap yourself in it and revel in the pleasure of ways that are more wise than our own.
Bless with your thoughts, and speak life and restore. I want to be proud and fully clear in conscience
over my memory. I want to know that from a distance, I can sing and shout praises to our King because He can work pain into the greatest joy and powerful life story for others as they learn, and I want to dance unabandoned when we move into eternal life in
the presence of our GLORIOUS GOD, who will turn two painful memories to face each other and watch us do the hugest HIGH FIVE!!
I refuse to give Satan room in this earthly battle.