I have just listened to Louie Giglio’s last of the f'ear series' and felt compelled to write on it. WOW.
I have an addictive nature. I only felt free to admit this 3 years ago. But the truth is we all have an addictive
nature, and I have no need to feel ashamed or alone. The biggest addiction I think we all face is our compulsion to seek people’s approval. This might seem minor in the face of the huge list of ‘real’ addictions we might have in our lives:
coffee, chocolate, retail therapy, drugs/substances, pain-relief/meds, success, money, fame, work, food, adrenaline, games, Facebook, Instragram, 'likes', people.
What is below the surface of why we need these addictions? Who has made
us feel not good enough. Is this something Jesus would enjoy us feeling? I actually think it is Jesus genius Himself behind our struggles. Follow me...
Nobody wants to feel vulnerable.
I am vulnerable.
The desire to be approved of by people - this has been my biggest addiction of all time. It’s power to render me useless is stronger than that of past eating disorders/depression/PTSD. I battle inwardly with this every day. Only today is it
made clear that our need for approval can be an addiction.
I shouldn't need to worry over what I write if my eyes are on Jesus. I shouldn't need to fret over how the message of The Book of Told will be taken.
I shouldn't need to beg God to give me faith to move books from my living room floor (the stocked NZ supply). He is in control.
He created us with a need to be accepted. Our addiction comes from our deepest desire to
have HIS approval after sin came into the world. We can be satisfied in knowing He has given it. And we can live in the reality of being chosen children that He has covered with His grace, and so therefore APPROVES
Imagine that! THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE APPROVES OF ME. Oh, I could never be happier than right now, in knowing this. When we are satisfied in Him through our continual gaining of knowledge of His character, then no Giant of Addiction
can stand in the way of Him beaming from our lives! The giants are dead – Jesus did it at the cross. Everything He needed to do for us has already been done!!! The whispers of fear from their memories are only that.
Get to know
Him by surrounding yourself with people and input that speaks His true likeness into our lives. By beholding Him we WILL become like Him. We are called to step out of our distractive world, and the Spirit’s boldness will enable us to do things we never
would have dreamed!!!!! Like writing a book!!!!! It was impossible for me.
Just like it was impossible for me (only months ago) to think of speaking on Radio Rhema for an author interview. Now God has me excited about being asked to
do it! Trust me, this is not me - this is Him in me. I am weak, BUT in Him I am strong!!
He is crazy how He changes us. We change by getting to know Him more and seeping in the endless words He has placed all around us. He deserves
our very best effort at learning all we can of Him in our lifetime. This is what we were made for. He is the very Great Pearl!
What I’d like to think: that each time I feel that
‘arrgh’ feeling of wanting gratification, satisfaction, approval, comfort, distraction, or pain-relief, that the feeling is only a masking of my vulnerability. I want to see the word VULNERABLE in my mind every time I feel pulled into the way Satan
would have me live.
He wants us to be useless.
Just like young David, whose brother taunted him with “You are just a boy, and Goliath has been a fighting man since his youth”, I want to think only
of God’s name being defamed by my lack of action. I want to KNOW He is encouraging me to step up to fight in His power.
God is not trying to hurt us. He puts these feelings inside us to make us stronger
than ever. He wants us to know that our power supply is endless. He wants us to seek Him out. He puts ‘thorns’ in flesh for a REASON and that is for Him. He wants us to live abundantly and that means close to Him in the presence of the origin of
abundance. PRAISE GOD FOR VULNERABILITY!!! In Jesus, when I am weak, then I am strong. Thank you God for my weakness.