My God stuff thinkings

Sent into the dark alone as a child – and God

To a child, a parent has a fine line to traverse in regards to discipline vs. love. From my point of view, now as a parent, these two are so related there should be no vs. dividing them.

Sometimes the best of parents have got it wrong.

Once when I was about 8yrs old, I had been asked to tie up our black Labrador and forgot. As the evening dark came, my mistake was realized when my dad heard our dog trying to settle for sleep on our porch. He told me to go and tie her up – in the dark.

Terrified of the unseen, cloaked in blackness, I made it only to the back door and panicked. My mother had to back my father, and I had no choice but brave it and tie our happy dog up, about 20metres away over by the shed. There was no lighting but my small torch.

I can hardly remember the details, except that I, after much fear and tears, and a lot of yelling from the big people, made it with pounding heart out to the chain. I do remember the fear running behind me as though to eat me, as I sprinted at top speed back into safety when I was done.

GOD DOES NOT SEND US OUT INTO THE DARK ALONE.

He would always hold our hand and walk us there Himself. We cannot equate our thoughts of God with our memories of our childhood, even if that childhood was ideal. God is better!!

Whatever my fears are concerning writing The Book of Life – mere words, I can rest that He has walked with me the entire way. I am learning to be stronger in my faith every day, that when we ask things of Him, we also need to ask for the faith to believe He will give us the ability to carry out what He wants in our life. It is for His benefit that this story be Told… it is for His gain and not my own.

Daily, I have to go face down and beg Him for courage to continue the advertising, and let Him move the hearts of those He has plans for regarding everything to do with this project. It can only be to the benefit of His name to be made known and His people He loves incredibly to be brought out of slavery - physically and mentally.

My anxieties and fears I consider nothing but a gift, as they FORCE me closer to God, and that is what I have pleaded with Him for my life.

He will not let me walk alone into any dark places. He is the God of gods and unlimited in power. That means He can use all of ‘even me’ to advertise Him. And what a privilege we have been given!!!!! To represent THE GOD to the earth… it stuns me again, and I feel the blanketing heaviness of His presence surrounding me and pulling me into awe of Him again this morning. How will I ever get the washing done now… ; )

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08.10 | 16:59

Kylie, I would be delighted to have my name as a side character in your next book. I am telling anyone who will listen that they too must read The Book of Told.

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08.10 | 16:42

Thank you SOOO much, Carol, for your encouragement! I would love to use your name as a side character in the prequel! Much blessings to you!

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08.10 | 15:43

For the first time in many years I have found a book that I didn't want to put down. I wanted to just continue reading to find out where the story was going.

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so so nice

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