My son recently suggested he felt it was cheating to ask God to give him more faith, like he needed to do something to work for it.
This made my stomach turn at what was a clear battle I had fallen for most of my life.
We cannot deserve
We NEED to ask big things of God. How else will he be showcased in our lives. Satan would look the stronger battle partner if we don't beg God to make us the strongest and most fighting fit soldiers He can use. It is for HIS BENEFIT that
we shine in this world!!!
I have begun to beg God to give me, and my family, as much wisdom and understanding, faith and insight into His mysteries as possible. And a deep descernment so we will not be suckered by the traps of these last days.
Face down, I beg Him to fill us up with as much as a human can handle.
For example, I told my boy, "How could your mother write a book in 5 1/2 months with only love letters to your father and a nursing degree as a background?" Only God could
make me let go of the boat and put such clarity in my mind for this attempt to showcase God's skills. He rewrote my life and then used me to write the things he wants - like He wants to with us ALL!
My son at 14yrs, is still in the 'How can it be like
this?' stage. He must upturn everything we are taught from a child that tells us 'if you do this, you get that." Showing him how we can be living examples of the power of God is exciting!!
So now you all know how this book was written - and why the
message is so much better than the gramma or sentence structure. You can forgive me for that, as I work through the editing process with a few english teacher friends, before I send it to the real editors for a complete overhaul.
God is awesome and
the thrill of finally being able to 'let go of the boat' is amazing. You should have seen my first few sentences of this novel, especially my attempt at dialogue! Talk about learn to swim by being thrown in!
I had to look up so many words (and still
do) like 'protagonist, prose, nuance, pronoun, adjective'! I am serious. That is how cool God is when He wants something done ... He chooses the rediculous of this world to make His name even greater!!