The internet made me lose all I had just written - but I refuse to stay without a record of my declaration.
It went something like this...
I refuse to let fear prevent me from living the fullest Spirit-filled life God would require of
me to make His name known.
Though today I am trembling in fear. It is a crippling fear that has held me back too often in the past - and it is not even an enjoyable temptation. I do even not remotely like it, yet its ugly lies sting me and
frustrating tentacles wrap around me stifling His ideal for me daily. I don't want it anymore.
Today I declare that fear has no place in my life anymore. Now, and over the next year, and five years, I will see MASSIVE changes by His power. God
has enduring permission to cut and poke, test and tease me out of a reliance on anything but His name. Be the only God to me!
Give me Your courage - I will take it. With my hands emptied of fear I will reach out and grab Your courage and You will
be my confidence to tell about You through my life.
You have the right to over-ride my will and make it Your own - to challenge me as You allow life to, in any big or small way to be sure I am becoming battle strong. I thank You with grateful words
that You care enough to send these tests my way and then allow us to use the same power of the Master Warrior (YOU) to meet them. What a God!!!
Right now, when I want to cry and give up in insecurity - for double guessing my right to advertise
You, for looking down at the water and seeing my own scared reflection instead of Your face - I determine inside to lean heavily on You. I will search for Your truths in Your Word, and swim amongst them until they are so heavily surrounding me I am eventually
lifted up from the fearful sea and walking firmly on them towards You.
Keep Your purpose FIRMLY and CLEARLY in my heart. YOU ARE AN AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME GOD!!!!!